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Prickly

My friends living in the northern reaches of the country are currently enduring a torrent of wild and wintry weather. Snow. Sleet. Wind. You name it. If it's unpleasant, they've got it.

Here in Los Angeles, I carve out 15 minutes every afternoon to sit in the sun. During this sliver of time, I feel the heat warm my chest and tinge my cheeks with color. It is a decadent indulgence, one I am sheepish to admit but secretly relieved to have. After decades of shoveling snow, cutting grass, and trimming bushes, I have become an ardent fan of the desert landscape.

For this girl, cactus is the new black...

"Gardening requires lots of water, most of it in the form of perspiration." – Lou Erickson

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26.2

Tomorrow I'm heading to Pasadena to give out bib numbers to runners competing in the upcoming Rose Bowl Half Marathon. Although not a runner myself, I have long had a love affair with this grueling endeavor. Having been raised in the shadow of Boston's famed "Heartbreak Hill," marathons are in my blood.

26.2 miles. Two sneakers. And a whole lot of heart. That's what marathons require. While the elite competitors race for time, most race against the distance itself. Running, walking, even crawling if that will bring that elusive finish line one inch closer.

"Marathoning. The triumph of desire over reason." – New Balance

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The Archbishop

Many years ago, Archbishop Desmond Tutu made an appearance at the Episcopal Divinity School in Cambridge. He was on a book tour, promoting his latest manuscript titled No Future Without Forgiveness. I went as much for the book as for the chance to meet its extraordinary author.

Archbishop Tutu was a mere imp of a man, standing just over five foot tall. By the time I made my way to the front of the reception line, his eyes still gleamed with mischief. In a lilting voice he spoke with me for a few moments before signing a copy of his book. It remains one of my favorite treasures.

There was a lightness to him, a hopefulness, a holiness that was undeniable. He is now heaven-bound no doubt.

"We may be surprised at the people we find in heaven. God has a soft spot for sinners. His standards are actually quite low." – Desmond Tutu

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What’s in a Name?

Her given name was Gloria Jean Watkins, born in Hopkinsville KY, just north of Nashville. After a substantive and transformational career she returned to Kentucky, ending her career at Berea College. By that time, everyone knew her by another name, the moniker she chose as an homage to her grandmother.

bell hooks.

The loss, as Roxanne Gay wrote on Wednesday after hearing of hooks' death, is "incalculable." hooks was an insistent and powerful literary voice. A truth teller. Unafraid to pull back the curtain and reveal some of the most distasteful aspects of our contemporary culture.

She looked at her pain, at our collective pain, and refused to flinch. She dared us to do better, to be better. She dared us to fight.

"When we face pain in relationships our first response is often to sever bonds rather than to maintain commitment." – bell hooks

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Where’s my coat?

It occurred to me this week that it was December and I had yet to put on my coat.

I have only lived, until now, in cold places, each one more bitter and raw than the next. At least half of my closet space is taken up with coats, along with their traditional accoutrements; scarfs, hats, mittens, and gloves. My closet is a moth's dream, stuffed with enough wool to keep their voracious hunger pangs at bay.

Despite this treasure trove, around February I grow cranky with my coats. I'm tired of all the buttoning and swaddling. The weight of those additional folds of fabric make my shoulders slope and my spirit wither. The cold drains me from the outside in and the inside out.

When you need a warm coat, there is nothing better than having one. Except for not needing it in the first place.

"You have to feel the bite of the wind to appreciate the warmth of a winter coat." – Fennel Hudson

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Silence = Death

The sun sets early in the beginning of December, even here in southern California. The first day of this darkened month also marks World AIDS Day, established in 1988 to raise awareness of the HIV/AIDS pandemic.

Just one year earlier, the National Mall in Washington, DC played host to the first display of the AIDS Memorial Quilt. A patchwork of names, sewn with care, grief, and outrage, it was a clarion call to a nation that, for far too long, had averted its eyes to the worst public health crisis of its time.

I was one of the estimated 1.2 million people who were fortunate enough to see the quilt in 1996, the last time it was shown in its entirety.

Panels of names for as far as the eye could see, lost, in part, through complicit silence.

"No person is your friend who demands your silence, or denies your right to grow." – Alice Walker

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Nothing Better

Of the countless holidays littering the American calendar, there is none I love more than Thanksgiving.

As a kid, my mother used to roast our turkey in a contraption she would plug into an outlet on our screened porch. The smell of the turkey would drive the neighborhood cats crazy. But what are you going to do? The kitchen oven was already reserved for baking the pies.

Here's to napping, and football, and breaking out the linen napkins. But most of all, here's to the holiday that places the mashed potato front and center. Now that's something to be thankful for!

"Shakespeare is like mashed potatoes, you can never get enough of him." – Frank McCourt

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No Words

At the end of the day, he pressed the metal badge into my palm during our farewell handshake.

And that's how I came to acquire the 1st Special Forces Group (Green Berets) #168 medal of excellence yesterday, from an active-duty soldier who, on Veterans Day, thought it better to thank the people he vowed to protect rather than the other way around.

I have no words. Which, it appears, is precisely the point.

"The world is changed by your example, not your opinion." – Paul Coelho

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A Slippery Slope

Still in the nascent days of my new Los Angeles life, I'm looking forward to the upcoming SoCal winter, finally free of slippery sidewalks, antifreeze, and staggering heating bills.

But this week I realized I had underestimated my lifelong love affair with the most surprising of objects. The snow shovel.

Sitting in the crowd at the Staples Center this past Wednesday, I took in my first LA Kings game. When the contest came to an occasional stop, a fleet of skaters descended upon the ice, each armed with a wide-mouthed shovel. As they glided in formation, up and down the rink, they scraped the ice clean with military precision.

Much to my surprise, I realized how much I wanted to join them.

So much for palm trees and Coppertone.......

"Do you shovel to survive, or survive to shovel?" - Kobo Abe

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What the Fluff?

Stop the presses! It has FINALLY happened!

Just this month, the word "fluffernutter" has been officially added to the Merriam-Webster dictionary, joining such legendary turns of phrase as "Dad Bod," "Vaccine Passport," and "Doorbell Camera."

Invented in 1917, this sugary staple was a hallmark of my childhood lunches. Indeed I am such a fan I count myself among the many who have volunteered for the annual "What the Fluff" festival, a cacophony of marshmallow concoctions and carnival rides, held each year in Somerville (MA), where Fluff was originally invented.

Sure there are healthier options. But is there anything more fun?

"No one ever pretended that shopping is a rational experience. If it were, would there be Fluffernutter? Laceless sneakers? Porkpie hats? Would the Chia Pet even exist?" – Jeffrey Kluger

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Stroke!

This weekend is the Head of the Charles.

An annual tradition for Cantabrigians, this event brings thousands of people to the banks of Boston's Charles River to glimpse ridiculously lithe rowers propel boats the width of a hanger toward a finish line located three miles from the start line.

This experience is not for the faint of heart. Rowing requires endurance, stamina, coordination, timing, rhythm, strength, power, and BOTH aerobic and anaerobic fitness. Oh and blisters. Did I mention the blisters?

But if you've ever watched a boat cut through water like a hot knife through butter, a tango of synchronized oars pulling to and fro, you know the seduction all too well.

“All were merged into one smoothly working machine; they were in fact, a poem of motion, a symphony of swinging blades.” – Boys in the Boat

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Water Works

It rained this week.

Actually, it poured. It was as if a giant bucket in the sky had tipped, sending cascades of water down to the parched lips of Southern California.

Every nearby zip code got drenched. Every dog in my apartment building howled, goaded on by both lightening and thunder. It was raining. IN LOS ANGELES.

Back in my hometown, pounding rain wouldn't have even registered on my storm-weary geiger counter. But after a mere few months in the San Fernando Valley, I leapt to the window at the slightest hint of a brewing squall.

Can wearing a jacket when the temps drop to 60 be far behind?

"Rain, rain, go away. Come again another day." – English Nursery Rhyme

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Primetime!

I love television. Full stop.

Last night's return of Grey's Anatomy was a particular highlight in a month awash in new programming. This latest episode kicked off the 18th season of Meredith, Bailey, Avery, and Dr. Webber prowling the hallways of Grey-Sloan Memorial. While I still miss the old days when McDreamy and Christina dominated the story lines, somehow Shonda Rhimes always keeps me coming back for more.

So whatever show is your guilty pleasure, I am right there with you. Pull out your favorite blanket. Fish the remote out from underneath the couch cushions. The fall season is BACK!

"If it weren't for electricity, we'd all be watching television by candlelight." – George Gobel

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Pizza to go!

A few days ago, I saw the above photograph in my hometown newspaper.

Why oh why, I mused, would anyone stick a slice of pizza under a windshield wiper? Perhaps to free up their hands to search a purse or pocket for an elusive bus pass? As a peace offering to a jilted lover? A practical joke? A drunken mishap? The possibilities are endless.

Everyone has a favorite pizza. Mine is the cheese thin-crust pie served up at Pizzeria Regina in Boston's North End. But any way you slice it (pun intended), leaving a piece of pizza under a windshield wiper is a true act of charity. My kingdom for a hot gooey wedge of Boston's finest.

"Unless you're a pizza, the answer is yes, I can live without you." – Bill Murray

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Disco Fever

The latest wave of symbols have just been released by Unicode, 37 in all, including (wait for it......), a DISCO BALL EMOJI!

Now that is technological progress I say.

During the 1970's, disco music was all the rage. Who could forget the opening scene of 1977's Saturday Night Fever? John Travolta, strutting down the streets of Brooklyn, paint can swinging to the pulsating beat. Or others, inspired by Travolta's gold chain and white suit, making their way to the newly opened Studio 54, hoping to carve up a dance floor dripping in celebrities. By the end of the decade, disco was still king. Donna Summer topped the charts in 1979 with her trio of hits; "Hot Stuff," "Bad Girls," and "MacArthur Park." The bass notes of each made my boombox quiver in delight.

Disco has endured a lot of shade since its heyday. But I remain a fan. If the mirror ball emoji is back, can the music be far behind?

"A glittering disco ball spins from the ceiling, but the music is something I've never heard, discordant and haunting and insistent, the kind of music that demands you dance." – Candace Bushnell (author of Sex and the City)

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Confetti

Last night I dreamt I was on a gameshow.

The task I was given required me to remove thousands of pieces of gold confetti from the shallow end of a swimming pool. It was both an infuriating, and ultimately, futile assignment. Every time I went to raise my cupped hands from the water, the sparkling flecks would slip through my fingers.

Without dragging Freud into this too much, I suspect I was wrestling with that age old quandary of how best to capture the opportunities given to me. I often feel this way at the beginning of the academic year, when the time ahead is a fresh new page filled with hope and possibility.

Reach out and grab a fistful of whatever comes your way. Life is for living.

"How much I missed, simply because I was afraid of missing it." – Paulo Coelho

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Sunshine

For the past two weeks I have walked to and from work each day. That, in of itself, is not unusual. It gives me time to both prepare and unwind from the various activities of the day. My extended strolls provide fodder for sermons, unkink muscles cramped by my desk, and acclimate me to my new neighborhood. Pretty standard stuff.

So why do I feel so different here? The answer? 84.

As in there are 284 days of sunshine each year in Los Angeles. That's 84 more days than my native Boston. Even more if you subtract days categorized as "partly sunny," bringing the total of bright sparkly days in Beantown down to a paltry 98. 186 days less than here in the City of Angels.

Given our planet orbits the sun, it's no wonder light has such a salvific effect.

"Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy." – John Denver

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Bumper Crop

I've never been a big fan of bumper stickers.

After spending tens of thousands of dollars on a car, I just couldn't see how a sticky, silly, or worst yet, snarky comment pasted onto my back bumper was an upgrade.

I fear I hold the minority view on this one. Every day I learn where people sent their kids to college, read proclamations of finding Jesus, and discover the political leanings of my adjacent drivers while stuck in traffic. I'm just not sure I need to know all that.

But this week I came across a bumper sticker that tweaked both my theology and my funny bone.

"What if the Hokey Pokey is what it's all about?"

Perhaps I need to rethink my position.....

“Only a writer would slap a bumper sticker on her car that read, 'Seriously, I'd rather be working'.” ― Richelle E. Goodrich

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Daddio

I learned a lot from my mother.

I was inspired by her fierceness. I watched her insist a place in the working world be available to her, and later, to me. I listened as she disavowed anyone who thought she was "just a woman, ruled by her emotions." I understood the complexities of walking in this world, incarnate in the body of a woman, from my mother.

But it was my father who gave me my confidence. In my father's eyes I saw the reflection of what I could be. It was my father who taught me to celebrate and treasure the ways in which I was not made in his likeness.

With Father's Day just around the corner, I celebrate the man who raised me to be the woman I am.......

"A study of successful women showed they all had one thing in common; fathers who listened to them." – Elinor Lipman, I Can't Complain

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Amber Alert

Twice yesterday, as I was careening down the twists and turns of Los Angeles' canyon roads, my heart jumped out of my chest when an AMBER alert suddenly blared out of my cell phone.

AMBER is an acronym for America's Missing: Broadcast Emergency Response, named after a nine-year old girl named Amber Hagerman. In 1996 she was kidnapped and later murdered in Arlington, TX, discovered just 5 miles from where she was riding her bike prior to her abduction.

I didn't know any of that until I did a bit of research upon arriving back home. My heart aches for parents who have lost a child to the vagrancies and cruelties life can bring. So this morning, my prayer was for Amber Hagerman.

Still loved. Still missed.

"Here we are, trapped in the amber of the moment. There is no why." – Kurt Vonnegut

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